I Choose Life Everyday

As a typical senior high school student, I face problems and struggles every single day. Sometimes I am bombarded with requirements to finish, deadlines to chase, and lessons to review. Not just the stress from school is what I have to face everyday. Being the first-born child is one of the causes why I feel tired most of the times. Having younger siblings means having larger responsibility other than being a typical child. You have to do things for them if they can’t do it for themselves, you have to always be selfless in order for them to be happy, and you have to stand strong as their support system when your parents fail to be there for them. And as for my friends, having a big circle kind of makes it difficult for me to fit in. It’s like whenever they have trips without me, I feel like an outcast. It’s awkward for me to be out of place. Whenever they talk about something I can’t relate to, I can’t help but to just be quiet for awhile until they talk to me about anything. It kinda seems shallow but you can’t blame me. You can’t blame anyone for how they feel. And yes, that may sum up why I feel like I am drained from everything. I feel like I need to rest for a long time. Or maybe rest, until the end of time. I can’t deny sometimes I think of how to get rid of myself. To end the pain, the struggles, and the problems. But then I realize, no. I am strong. I am better than this. I would love to rest to end all the pain, but I love the people around me more. And in every day I was given, I choose life. I choose life, everyday.